This is a follow-up to my last post, “The Danger of Trying to ‘Fit In’.”
Oh shit! I have been trying to fit in all this time! I never paid attention to the Spirit’s calling to stand out for God! Now I am at this point in my life and feel as if I’ve screwed up big time! My heart is broken and my soul’s crushed as I realized that I spent all these years trying to fit in, looking for love, for approval. I took shit that even a fool wouldn’t just to be accepted and liked…
I’ve sold my soul for the proverbial mess of pottage and now my life’s a wreck-like Trump’s presidency! I cannot look at myself…I’ve been used, abused, humiliated, and left on the curb-all with my approval! I’ve burned up my funds trying to “keep up with the Joneses,” I’m divorced and paying (or receiving) alimony/child support. I surrendered my dreams seeking the “love” of another and wound up supporting theirs. The ministry God had for me to pursue is stillborn…The list is endless.
Now what do I do? Maybe I just need to trudge through life the best way I can and hope for the best. Should I give up on what God may have for me and realize it’s too late? Should I reach out to God, or has God given up on me? Should I go back on those who took advantage of me and seek revenge, ruining their lives in turn? Or should I give it all up and die…?
Before we fall into the “all is lost” trap, I suggest that we look at an interesting passage of Scripture. About 20 years ago, I was going through some personal issues. It was one day at work while I had a free moment I was reading my Bible-in the Psalms to be exact. During that time, I stumbled upon the 107th Psalm and began to read it. It was in this passage that God spoke to me and gave me hope. And thank God, He/She allowed me to bless you by using it as a reference.
Psalm 107 talks about God’s saving those who have sinned against Him/Her in many ways. These people strayed from God and wound up in deep shit. Some were more lost than the Jupiter 2 or the USS Voyager. These people however woke up and reached out to God-crying out to Him/Her. God then delivered these people, restoring them, taking them to better places to live. If we apply this psalm today, it gives us encouragement and hope that God is still willing and able to rescue us and bring us to the place He/She had for us from Day One. We need to reach out to God-period. No matter where we are we need to reach out to God, confess our straying trying to fit in, and ask God to lead us to where He/She wanted us to be. THAT’S what we should do!
Now, I’m not to say God’s going to turn the clock back. However, God can take us from where we are-right now-and move us to where we’re supposed to be. In regards to those who have taken advantage of you? I don’t think God’s going to strike ’em with plagues (for a moment that was my request); however, God will re-position them to a place of insignificance where they will see you blessed, yet will lose out on your blessing them.
However, like I said earlier, we must reach out to God. It would be stupid to know our state, yet stay in it. This in itself is a dangerous trap. We must be willing to open up and be honest with God-even if it scares us. Like those in in the 107th Psalm, we must call on God for deliverance. This is what we must do if we’re going to truly stand out for God instead of trying to “fit in” with the world.
Take a moment to read Psalm 107, no matter the version (I originally read the NIV back in the day). We will find ourselves in the passage; and we will find encouragement for our situation. That’s the answer to tonight’s question, “Now what do I do?”
I pray that you will take that brave step out from fitting in and discover what God has for you to do.
Peace, my beloved.
(Image: This was a road taken near Leavenworth, Kansas last month when we were visiting our Godmother).