What do you do when you get tired of all the bullshit in your life? When you see nothing but absurdity and you’re trying to make sense? When you get tired of folks telling you to “just pray”, or “strengthen your faith”?
You try to believe that God will work it out, however when you see all that around you have doubt. You feel as of you’re all alone in this journey called life; and there’s no one to rescue you.
How do you feel when you want to run away from it all? When you’re tired of being everyone’s hero and when your strength is gone, no one’s there to strengthen you?
How do you feel when you cannot create even though it’s in your mind it just hadn’t reached your heart? When you look at your medium and sigh because the muse took an extended holiday?
How do you feel as if just “one more thing” will push you over the edge? When you get to the place of nearly blowing your stack?
You go to church, yet “couldn’t hear nobody pray” you’re so out of it. Your BFF is no help. Your family is more problem than solution. You’re so in a funk that not even good sex can help (you know that’s bad).
Social media and all the “churchy” posts you’re bombarded with almost turn your evangelical self into an Atheist. All you see is bad news. People cry, “the sky is falling” for the millionth time yet nothing happens. Celebrity news is more valued over common sense. And after a few moments looking at the media, you give up all hope for humanity (drop the bomb and call it a day).
Right now, you’re ready to run off to some lone mountain retreat or deserted tropical island just to get away from it all.
“All is vanity,” Ecclesiastes tells us, and that is true: today, we would say it’s all bullshit.
Sorry kids, but sometimes you don’t give a fuck. And all you can do is the best you can. If others don’t like it, they can go to Hell.
For God knows you feel like you’re there now…